I will never love another human being the way I love my girls. It is changeable, always evolving - but constant. I will be their home through their lives. I will be the constant that remains when life fails and mistreats them. I will always be here and love them, and they will feel safe with me.
I will always be a nose picker. Can't help it. How am I supposed to breathe if I have blockages in my nose passages? I must routinely clean them. Its not gross, its necessary. I dispose of my finds as discretely and sanitarily as possible.
I will never be someone who "has it all together" I may fool a few people here and there, but I will never have it all figured out. I like not having it all figured out. It excites me to know that there are masses of knowledge out there to be had that I know nothing of. There is always room for me to do better, learn more, be more patient, more organized, more loving and caring to my family and to strangers. What I am today, right now, may not even resemble the me in 10 years - and I find that exhilerating. I know that as soon as you think you have it all figured out, you are faced with a situation that shows you how very very wrong you are.
I need people. I need close relationships with my friends, my husband, my mom, my sisters, my brother. I need these people. I get energy and hope from my interactions with them. I get love and kindness from them. I get ideas and good conversation from them. I get to reflect myself back to me through them - get a glimpse of how I am viewed in their eyes - and that information is powerful. It helps me to know how I need to do better and where I am doing GREAT! It makes me realize what and where I want to be, when I might not have a clue without them.
I know that filming 8 or so clips of you and your spouse kissing will be fun - and will spice things up in your marriage a little. It is not gross. Its cute and sweet and I'm glad that Jacob still wants to kiss me like that after 8 years.
I know that I tend to write long winded, rambling, half coherent posts after taking an ambien. Sorry. Goodnight.
3 comments:
Really good post. You are wonderful and make my life much better and more interesting. Thanks.
Oh, but dear Michelle.. these are your best, most heartfelt posts and I find them rather inspiring. They make me feel good to know someone so true and honest and loving and well expressed and smart and witty and funny and wonderful!
My name is Cherise Kenner and i would like to show you my personal experience with Ambien.
I have taken for 1 years. I am 57 years old. Works great if I take it on an empty stomach, and get right into bed. If you take it and try to keep yourself awake, you can override the pill and be up all night.
Side Effects :
None.
I hope this information will be useful to others,
Cherise Kenner
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